It's been a week since I sent out my partial. I paid for delivery confirmation, so I know it's at the HQ/Kimani office in New York. Oh dear.
It's so hard to be confident about my writing. I'm worried that they're going to look at my MS with scorn, like why did she send this to us? I try not to worry about it too much because I'll drive myself crazy. There's not a lot I can do about it now. I just hope that they "get it" and understand what I was trying toaccomplish, even if they don't think the story is perfect.
Of course, if they do think the story is perfect, I won't object. :)
I know the story isn't perfect, so I've been doing some edits that make the story stronger. Even if the story gets rejected, I'm still going to finish the edits (assuming I hear back before I'm done). It's important to me and to Melanie and Sean. I love them so much and want them to have the best HEA possible.
So back to the grindstone!
Today, finally, I mailed my partial and synopsis to Kelli Martin. It's out of my hands now. This was a nerve-racking experience. It took 2 weeks to get this out. I can't imagine what it will be like if the full getsrequested. But somehow I think I'll deal with it. :)
I think I did everything wrong. I included 3 chapters...and a prologue. My synopsis was 9 pages long. She said she wanted a full synopsis, so I gave it to her. Hopefully, she won't throw my stuff out because I broke the rules. We'll see.
I'm proud of what I wrote. I changed the last third of the book based on Kelli's suggestions. I like it more now because the changes allow for more tension between the h/h. They have a big knockdown, drag out fight in the black moment. In the the first version, she just gives it to him, but in the current version, he gives it right back.
Plus, my first version had a pesky song copyright issue. That's all gone now. lol.
So it's February 5, 2010. Today starts the rest of my life. How's that for being dramatic?